When my dad moved us to Montana, I was sad to leave behind my Bellevue friends for the second time, but also looked forward to a world where no one knew that I played the piano. When it came time to register for classes, I auditioned for the top choir and made it. That choir yielded some of my fondest high school memories and dearest friends, and also introduced me to innumerable choral works.
The choir had a tradition at every December concert of singing the Austrian carol, “Still, Still, Still.” Always the final song of the concert, Miss Mac would turn to the audience and invite any alumni to the stage to join the choir and sing. Every Christmas since, when I hear that song, I am back on the stage in Williamson Hall, clasping the hand of the singer next to me before singing.
This year, the only singing I’ve done is in my car or my kitchen or even my classroom before kids or Stueve arrived; no communal carol singing of any sort. So I spent time this month learning a piano solo arrangement of “Still, Still, Still” mashed up with “Silent Night.” Initially, I thought I would record it and send it to my lifelong friend Mike–we met in that choir, by the way– as some sort of lame attempt at a long-distance Christmas gift. But then I thought about so many people I know (and I’m sure plenty more I don’t) who are low this season, who are missing concerts and caroling, who find music as a space for faith and comfort.
Sharing with just Mike is safe–he won’t point out the missed notes or uneven pedaling or changing tempos, because he’s my friend, but also because he shares my sentimentality for the song. I know it’s not a perfect recording, but I hope as you listen, you think of the people who made past Christmases special, and if you haven’t yet reached out to them, do so.
8 thoughts on “Christmas Eve 2020”
So lovely….will play again this evening….it is perfect for the cool winter evening full of stars. You have evoked so much for all of us…not just Mike.
https://www.trinitychurchofaustin.org/ 7:30 pm tonight
PS BEAUTIFUL… brought tears of joy to my eyes
Thank you…love you 🙂
Beautiful! I love listening to you play the piano! Great way to start my Christmas Eve! I love your HS tradition. Mine did something similar with the choirs, orchestra, alumni and any audience members singing the Hallelujah Chorus. That was always a highlight of our Christmas season. I remember being so excited the year after I graduated to get to sing and not play in the orchestra. Thanks for the reminder. Love you! Merry Christmas! 💕🎄
Aw thanks…it really is so fun to move from instrumentalist to vocalist for sure. I’m glad you got that experience too!!! Merry Christmas!
Not much of either anymore. Keep thinking I would give piano a try again.
Loved this so much. Thank you for sharing your talent.