April 14
I did not write yesterday
And from 10 p.m. until midnight,
I wrestled with my sheets and pillows.
I turned on the TV, then turned it off
Tried three different meditations
Ate some toast
And though tired, could not sleep.
Somehow my alarm woke me
Which means I did sleep
But once awake
I wrestled with my thoughts and feelings.
I answered emails
I listened to podcasts
I ate some breakfast
(and some snacks)
And though full and entertained and marginally productive,
My mind would not settle.
“I must need a break from my computer,” I said.
So I closed its lid
And swiveled my chair to the left
To see the leafless trees and blue sky off my balcony
Too windy to go for a walk, I deduce
(after yesterday’s forays into 20 degree wind chills)
And I lean back in my chair
Mind racing, eyes swimming
When I realize
I did not write yesterday
