When I Was 15. And 25.

One Friday remains before I leave my 30s. To “celebrate” (process, deal with, etc.) I’m going through journals and sharing entries that represent the decades of my life.

To preserve Deanne’s reputation, I will not be sharing a journal entry from when I was 19. Ya’ll can wait to read about that year when my book is published. By the way, if you’re reading this, are you in the publishing business? Wanna read a scintillating memoir about a spinster Mormon?

Anyway. So Kirsty said 25, and Amy said 15 and when I read the journal from 1988 I knew it would make Amy laugh, and I love to make Amy laugh. So I’m gonna give you two, two, two for the price of one! So settle in because this post will be long, and it will be full of boys.

August 13, 1988

Well, I’ve been on vacation. It was pretty great. I met 4 guys. One in CA, one in AZ, and 2 in Utah. But they’re nothing to me. I like Kyle. He is so nice. He’s coming to the next dance with me on Sept. 3. Right now we’re just friends, but you never know…

I got my permit to drive on August 11. I drove 5 miles home the day I got it, and last night dad took me to Bellevue East’s parking lot. I drove around the parking lot and then drove down to the library, about 1/2 a block away. Then I drove to Shopko. On a major road! It was great. I even parked great!

Vacation was ok. I saw my cousin Dalene and we went to a dance in Phoenix. That’s where I met Andrew. He’s a sweetie. In California, we went to Disneyland. All the cute guys there were taken. But we went to see the Bolands again and their son Scott is a babe. Me and Cynda went to a mall and had fun. Then to Pleasant Grove (Utah) to my mom’s best friend’s house. Her name is Marilyn. She has a 14 year-old son–Eric. He’s a blond hair, blue-eyed, great smile, gorgeous tan sweetheart. And since Emily was gone, I got to know Eric better.

When we got home, Danny H. came over to visit. He and Dawna are going out so he came over to talk to me. David’s on vacation. Can’t wait til he gets back. I better turn in. If Kyle calls tomorrow, I’ll write.

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Here’s the run-down of activities that occured in the weeks leading up to my 25th birthday:
July 1: I came home from my mission in Montreal.
July 7: My dad retired from the Air Force.
July 8: My Nana died
July 9: Was told “You’re just not that attractive” by a boy I had loved for 9 years, even though six weeks earlier he had written me a letter in which he suggested we get married
July 11: My sister Jennie’s bridal shower; met the boy I’d date for the next 8 months
July 22: Went on this date.
July 24: Flew to Utah for Jennie’s wedding, turned 25.

The journal entries from this summer are like telegraphs–short, containing just basic details. In hindsight, I’m sure part of it was a bit of culture shock. I had just come home from my 18-month mission, where my only priority was living and preaching my faith. Looking at that timeline of events, I would think I’d be writing up a storm. But I wasn’t, and the only explanation I can think of is that I flat-out didn’t even know where to start.

But here’s one anyway, from the night before my birthday, a much less detailed version of the aforementioned date.

July 23, 1998

I can’t believe I turn 25 tomorrow.  Doesn’t seem possible that I’m that old. Did I mention that I’m working with the youth at church?  A calling with responsibility.  Scary.  Had a date with Brian last night.  It was really great.  He is so nice!  He opened the car door for me…he paid for dinner and a movie…I cried a teeny bit at the movie (we saw Armageddon) but he cried harder than I did.  I was swooning big time.  After the movie we went to Taco Bell and then we went to a park and ate and talked.

We have a ton in common and it was so fun to just flirt and talk and goof off with him.  He’s coming to Jennie’s reception and then after we’re going to do something.  I asked if he’d help me with the refreshments and I told him I’d make sure he was adequately paid…he liked that.  So I’ll think of something cool to do for him. I think I’m fixing us dinner as well.  I am in deep smit and I don’t like it. I’m still fighting the whole Matt thing and it’s really hard to just let that go. But I have to do it.  I don’t know if Brian’s planning on moving to Utah anytime soon…I don’t know why he wants to because he’s always complaining about Utah girls…but that would be just my luck.  I hope he doesn’t.

For the first time in my life I am not nervous after a first date.  I feel very calm and just happy.  I’m not even the jittery person I tend to be.  I feel like whatever happens, happens and I’ll be ok with it.  Anyway, I should get stuff ready for my flight. Next time will be Monday night.